new creation?

 

am i REALLY a "new creation"? or am i cursed? bible tells me that all creation is cursed because of faulty decision making mechanisms in the garden. so, it stands to reason that i am cursed as well.

am i destined to look like this forever? i sure hope not! besides, paul says that we will meet Jesus in our transformed bodies... but how will we look? the text tells us that when Jesus came back in resurrection power He must have looked different because his closest friends could not recognize Him readily.

if i am a new creation, like paul says, then why do i STILL look the same????? i acknowledge that there are significant differences in terms of behavior, mood, spirit, health. BUT, i still look like a manatee, and weigh as much as a baby elephant (and not the cute "disney-dumbo" one)!!! it doesn't seem fair. this is how crazy my thinking gets, "how come a strung out addict gets to be skinny, and i'm not strung out BUT I'M STILL FAT?!?" AND, today's culture and society deems fat, or even curvy, as undesirable. this is madness... or am i the only crazy one... 

i don't think so. there are so many desperate people trying, and dying, to fit into unrealistic parameters of beauty that the market has developed industries, "scientific" methods, religions, philosophies, etc., that cater to the despairing, anguished, distressed, miserable, hungry masses! THIS is the madness.

LORD, Holy Spirit, please, please, please continue the good work that You began in me. i want to grow up to be a different me, not the same, not even better, not a "2.0"... i want to be a completely different me, in every way; fashioned after your image, radiant, strong, beautiful; your way of thinking and reasoning; your way of feeling and experiencing emotions in peace, joy, hope, compassion, gentleness, kindness, steadfastness. i want to be like you. i want to be with you. like john said, "come quickly!"

amen