and we're back...

back to the reality that stares back at me from the mirror;

back to pinching my excess flesh; 

back to heart racing and struggling;

back to headaches and pressure;

back to coveting and wanting a smaller, thinner me;

back to thinking that starvation and punishing the body is a viable weight loss method;

back where i do not want to be... where i do not belong.

how do i get out of this space? where do i turn? where do i go? what can i do?

instantly my mind goes to scripture, Their presence is here, in my despair, in my hopelessness, in my weakness, in my exhaustion, in my pain, They are here. Yes, They, the fullness of all that They are - Father, Mother, Husband, Brother, High Priest, Sacrificial Lamb, River of Life, Bread, Comforter, Counselor, Wisdom, Redeemer, all of that and more.

now this space is filled with Presence, Stillness, Peace, Comfort... silencio