this is not about you... this is about me... healing. today i have reached yet another "low", my weight is higher today than it has been in a long time and i am devastated to think that i am back at this weight again. i am so tired of this; tired of eating, tired of not wanting to move, yet tired of moving, tired of breathing... so, so tired. what can i do? do i fast? do i eat? do i go for a walk? i don't WANT to do any of those things. i just want to sit here today. maybe that's what i ought to do, just sit and contemplate, and maybe in the contemplation, peace will come, healing will come, illumination will come, contentment will come, hope will come - hope has already arrived.
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